Just some thots and feelings

Gee... I never fully realised how much a cubicle faciliated the ability to blog until the past few months. In the past, I would often pen a little note just before or after work... after all, it's after office hours, so who can actually fault me for spending a little time on personal affairs? But now that I'm practicing "hot-desking", I've been unable to even check my personal mails, never mind being able to pen a blog post.

This has been bugging me though... think I've gotten so used to just writing down how I feel, and on whatever that strikes me, it feels kinda weird to be bereft of this "output" resource.

So... what has been happening... well, there's been alot of activity in my life lately... and I still don't really know how I feel about it... I think in the first couple of weeks, it was as though nothing much has changed, and when I compare with those around me, I seem to be in a different league altogether. But now that the time draws nearer, and I've got more nitty gritty to concern myself with, I feel as though the whole thing is one big fat joke. It's like starting on an audit without filling up the audit planning memorandum... the whole thing is all based on assumptions and totally unplanned... which only leaves plenty of rooms for the unexpected... and unexpected has been exactly what I've been getting.

There has been quite a few of those litte "surprises" along the way... people reacting differently, differences of opinion... you name it, you have it... made me a tad bit apprehensive to be honest. I mean I knew there were bound to be hiccups... in fact these were problems that were inherently there from the start, but somehow, as it is with human nature, I kind of thought that since the problems have yet to blow up in my face, they would somehow just fade away... Well, I guess it is time to face these little things and to finally have a showdown on them one by one... Will I succeed? Hmmm... hopefully, after all, this is integral to my future happiness...