Difficult Conversations

Had a semi traumatic week where I kinda lost it at work. Looking back, not even too sure what triggered it. Subsequent conversation was not any better, but brought to mind the fact that I need to make decisions SOON. Why is it the older I grow, the harder it is to decide what I want? What happened to that "know it all" attitude that I once had? A semblance of that me may not be a bad thing at the moment. Pride, ego, material needs... this SWOT analysis has too many facets.

Thankfully work week ended with a nice little dinner with Miss Ene and PR at my place - cannot believe it's the first time that Miss Ene has been over. But even that dinner had its sobering moments which added to my confusion: what is the role of a woman in today's world? Made me remember this classmate of mine in Sec School who is of Middle Eastern origin. Both her and her sis would easily top their cohort in terms of grades - yet both were resigned to the fact that after sec school they would go back to their country and enter into an arranged marriage. At that time I know I was in shock at the unfairness of it all - but actually, maybe in our so called advanced / westernized country, we are but just delaying the inevitable subversion of women.